{"id":805,"date":"2006-06-16T07:08:00","date_gmt":"2006-06-16T12:08:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lawrencem94.sg-host.com\/?p=805"},"modified":"2006-06-16T07:08:00","modified_gmt":"2006-06-16T12:08:00","slug":"so-many-ways-to-cry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/?p=805","title":{"rendered":"So Many Ways To Cry"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>If I haven&#8217;t utilized all the ways there are to cry, I&#8217;m sure I will before the year is out. I most dislike the gaping soundless crying that precedes the gut-wrenching sobbing. I know it&#8217;s a relief, it&#8217;s letting out grief, but I hate hate hate it. All the anxiety and restless hope that lived like a clawing scrambling ferret in my chest has been replaced by a similar-feeling sense of dread and worry; the future holds many opportunities to sledgehammer me emotionally, I fear some of the practicalities of sorting out the estate, and I am basically being irrational and channeling my lifelong desire to control things, to know what&#8217;s going to happen, and to try to impact it.<\/p>\n<p>Deep breaths. Leaky tears. One day at a time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If I haven&#8217;t utilized all the ways there are to cry, I&#8217;m sure I will before the year is out. I most dislike the gaping soundless crying that precedes the gut-wrenching sobbing. I know it&#8217;s a relief, it&#8217;s letting out grief, but I hate hate hate it. All the anxiety and restless hope that lived [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/805"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=805"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/805\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=805"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=805"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/plazajen.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=805"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}